We still have our ups and downs. A particular down we had at school the other day involved the number 29 and a mini glucagon shot.
Through it all, my girl has been a rockstar. There were tears involved, of course with the glucose shot but with every other finger stick and new pump and dex site, she doesn't really complain. I've never had to hold her down to get a BG reading or bribe her so she'll sit still to place a new dex sensor. Every once and a while, I'll get an "Aw, man!". Again, rockstar.
Since numbers have been leveling out and not as erratic like they used to be, P notices the changes.
Out of the blue, the other night, BG started to climb high. and fast. She became very emotional. Very upset that Isabelle's (her a American Girl doll) hair was messed up.
We are very blessed to have Dex...and Nightscout. I looked down at my watch and saw she was zooming passed 300. As I checked her blood sugar, I realized I needed the blood ketone meter.
Then, she lost it.
She sobbed. "I really don't like diabetes!"
This momma's heart shattered.
I have never heard her complain and cry about diabetes like that. I'm so used to her happy, just go with it attitude that I forget. I forget that she's 4 and dealing with a grown-up sized issue.
She can have a bad day. She doesn't have to always be OK with diabetes. She doesn't have to always be OK with 8+ finger pricks a day, pump site changes 3 times a week, Dex changes every couple weeks...and that's just the routine.
I never want diabetes to become an excuse or a crutch and she has already proven to me many times that diabetes won't hold her back.
P has been telling her friends at school about diabetes. She has shown them how she can check her BG all by herself. She says, "yeah, I have diabetes". She says it with a little sass and pride.
My girl is an amazing thing to behold!
She kicks D-booty every day.
And when it is a bad day, Mommy will be here to wipe away the tears.
